No Longer There, Not Quite Here Yet

Having a terrible aversion to the cold (or feeling exposed) and figuring that it is in part psychological, I imagined a figure recoiling into herself from the cold—or whatever it is which makes her feel vulnerable—who, in the same moment, knows that armor does not make the warrior and can sometimes be an impediment. And so, despite her discomfort, she puts a foot forward, in fact, a whole leg, determined her self will follow.

The title is derived from a sentence in a letter written by Freud just before having to leave Vienna permanently for London during the Nazi occupation. He says, “…we are no longer here and not yet there.” The reversal of “here” and “there” was made with the intention of making “there” encompass what we have already experienced or been and “here” what we are in the midst of experiencing and becoming.